My faith in the flood

I sit in my garage watching the flood line of Hurricane Harvey inch closer to my house. Wind pushes hard at the trees, what seems like endless rain ignores my prayers.

Prayers. What comes of them now?

One of the finest Priests I know, Rev Beth Fain just 2 or so months ago returned to her house after it was repaired, following serious flood damage back in April of last year. Last night she evacuated, her home again flooded, only worse than before. A loyal, magnificent Priest. Why her Lord?

I cannot fathom prayer. I know without question that God acts, that He works in my life. But how, and where prayer fits in. Utter mystery.

With each tragic, confusing moment, my faith deepens. Not through God becoming more clear, but through God being less perceptible. I lay down another part of my intellectual construct, my pitiful assumptions about God. I give up a little more control over God’s nature. I give in to the mystery.

Little do I know. Little must I know for my faith to grow.

And still the flood waters proceed towards my home..

15 thoughts on “My faith in the flood

    1. I’m faithfully praying for you and your family, for ALL effected by this hurricane and flooding, and will continue to pray for you ALL. Lord, have mercy🙏

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  1. Rev Mark, prayer seems to be doing the same to me…yet how can I, too, allow it to deepen my faith as my loss of faith in the prayers I’ve always been told to pray continues? “According to His will” confuses me in so many ways…

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  2. I’m with you, my friend. Leaning on God as I understand less and less of what is happening. I’m heartbroken, devastated about Beth’s+ home and I can’t imagine how she must be suffering. Holding close to the only thing I know for sure: that no matter what happens, He is with us to the end of the age. Continuing to pray.

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  3. I’m with you, my friend. Leaning on God as I understand less and less of what is happening. I’m heartbroken, devastated about Beth’s+ home and I can’t imagine how she must be suffering. Holding close to the only thing I know for sure: that no matter what happens, He is with us to the end of the age. Continuing to pray.

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  4. Oh my friend! We have so attempted to
    Americanize God so He will prioritize
    things that seem right to us! This sounds so much like a time of growth for you and for we who follow you. I assure you my brother, your prayers are life changing for some of us. Hang on to your faith and let it grow!

    May God richly bless you and yours.

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  5. I thank God for you and your family and I pray for protection and cover, as you endure this “storm” It’s in His hands 🙏🏿

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  6. I will continue to pray for all of you affected by this horrible weather. Keep looking for others to help. I have learned that helping others is where my most valuable lessons lie. He is always watching and always caring. My path is my choice. There are lessons everywhere. He will be there for me no matter what choice I make.

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  7. This is Shannon Post Nelson.I’ve been fb friends with your family for over a few years now. GOD placed an opportunity in my lap where I started a fb page less than 2 weeks ago called Butterfly Born Again! It has close to 1000 likes now! God is in full control of the site. It’s a place only to glorify God! I copied your letter about prayer and just had a young man respond. I wanted to share it with you too!… Thank you for sharing the story of your pastor friend in Texas. Tonight I celebrated a birthday with my family for the first time sober and for the first time without my dad. Trying to wrap my head around why God would take my dad at age 58 on day 10 of my sobriety. And your post from the pastor friend in Texas helped me so much. 

    Tonight I can rest, giving in to the mystery of God. Humbled by the realization that my finite human mind will never comprehend His infinite power, love or why He does what he does. We have a quote in AA that says, “nothing, absolutely nothing, happens in God’s world by mistake. Holding onto those truths tonight. Thank you.

    Sent from my Sprint Samsung Galaxy S8.

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  8. Mark and family i am praying for you its extremely diffecult to experience what you are going through but We cannot ask why the Lord will protect and keep you safe , heavenly father i ask you in your precious name to stop this hurricane your mighty hands can do anything .
    I ask you lord to protect each and every person effected bynthis hurricane i ask you in Jesus name stop this rain and hurricane

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  9. I am praying for you and all caught in this giant storm. The Lord works in unusual ways. Rain is a blessing but a deluge we cannot see the blessing. We will keep looking and praying. The Lord challenges those He loves the most.

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  10. No platitudes, just concern. I hope all will come better soon. But a mutual friend of ours knew from his global warming predictions thing like this will happen. I trust God listens even if the politicians have persistently failed to.

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