Where I am at and need to be

I am going to share something very personal, this may shock some of you. But I feel it needs to be said.

I find being a Christian incredibly hard. I don’t pray enough.

I go days without reading the Bible or even thinking about it.

I often act in ways that are against God’s will. I am shocked at how self-centered I can be.

I miss church in favor of sleeping in.

I am a struggling Christian.

Now, I love God and know 100% that He is real and that Jesus died for our sins so that we might be in communion with Him.

But I love sin when I should be loving God.

I am being reliant on myself when I should be reliant on God.

I am bringing attention to myself when I should be bringing attention to God.

I am a struggling Christian who yearns for a deeper relationship with God. So I commit this day to push on ‘towards the goal for the prize of the heavenly call of God in Christ Jesus.’ (Philippians 3:14)

18 thoughts on “Where I am at and need to be

  1. I’m right there with you brother! I struggle with these things too! Thank you for your confession today! May God Bless you and keep you in His care!

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  2. Love the transparency! We are all sinners and constantly have to double back and re-focus. As long as we keep the main thing (Jesus). the main thing, He will constantly remind us that we are not in control, He is!

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  3. Just one of the reasons I have followed you for many years… You never pretend to be better than any of us who struggle with the same problems and are not afraid to bring it to light. God Bless you, Mark.

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    1. So here I am. I do have a quiet time and prayer time almost everyday. But more often than not it is forced and I am happy when it, and my prayer list is done. Who is worse? You or me? Yikes! God help us both!
      It makes me ever so thankful for His love and grace and patience.

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  4. Thank you for your honesty, about something I believe we all struggle with sometimes. And, thank God, I believe/know he loves us anyway…maybe even more on our ‘cold days.’ Mary

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  5. I’m not glad you do this but I am made to understand that we all sin and fall short. I myself am not the only one doing this. Satan makes us feel “I am the only person “ this happens too. When I found out this too happens to others I’m not alone in asking God for His forgiveness. I can stand with Jesus and walk with Him into heaven because he died for me and all my sin.

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  6. I think we all struggle as Christians. It is hard plain & simple. What I love about you Rev. Mark is how honest you are about any failures you may have. Honesty & integrity are wonderful qualities to possess – which I believe you have. God Bless you, Christi & your family.

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  7. The Brotherhood is Praying for you. God loves you and continually is saving you! You do not have to feel it! God loves you and so do we! 🤗

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  8. Sounds so familiar , I could have written the same message ❤🙏❤🙏 we both need the same thing , and for others to be praying for us !!

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  9. Praise Jesus! Am by names of Jathan Jonathan living in Tanzania! I have been impressed with your messages so far….may God bless you

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  10. I lost my dady and he was the pastor of about 100 memberz in church(Agape church) It is now four yearz since he left to go in heaven. The aim is that…..i like studying bt i have failed to join any school becouse of money……i request for your players! May God bless you

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  11. I am right there with you. I too am a struggling Christian. I think life is very difficult. But I trust that God is working even amongst our struggle.
    I need constant help from the Lord just to make it through a day. He is working even when we don’t feel him. Thankful he knows how hard this life is and that he cares for us even in our struggles. God is our strength in our weakness.

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